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Green Grass and Cool Water Please

June 9, 2007 2 comments

On Tuesday I spoke with the HR woman from Eagle Brook Church about setting up an interview for the position of Service and Event Producer which I had applied for. We scheduled the interview for Thursday at 2 pm and from my perspective the interview went great. Thank you for all your prayers.

I left the church offices Thursday feeling like I had a good shot at the position. I was unusually upbeat and excited because it seemed to Stephanie and I that God’s hands were in the details of this thing, and we hoped that we would soon be venturing out on a much needed new adventure in our lives.

Then I received an email on Friday from the Eagle Brook HR lady which read,

Thank you very much for participating in our interviews yesterday. It was great to get to know you, and your skills, experience and career goals. Unfortunately, at this time we will not be asking you back for a 2nd interview. I will be keeping your resume on file, in case we open up the 2nd position later in the year.

I have to admit, I didn’t see it coming. Yesterday was a tough day for the me; I was battling feelings of depression and despair all day. News like the news I received makes you step back and question things. It forced me to evaluate whether or not I believe things like this and this.

My brother Jeff texted me the lyrics from a Jeremy Camp song when he heard about my disappointment. The whole song encapsulates both my struggle and my desire,

I will walk by faith
Even when I cannot see
because this broken road
Prepares Your will for me

Each day when I drive home I go past a car dealership with a Christian owner who puts Bible verses up on the big light board in his parking light. Yesterday there was a verse posted from Psalm 107. This is an amazing Psalm which describes the steadfast love of God. Please read it today. In each stanza of the Psalm there is a phrase that recurs:

Then they cried to the Lord in their trouble, and he delivered them from their distress.

Those words are refreshing to a depressed and despairing soul. We are not alone. We are not forsaken. I know that God will answer us. I believe in His timing and His leading. I know that my being turned away from Eagle Brook does not mean God has turned away from me. It may in fact be His kind hand redirecting a lost sheep to the place where there will be green grass to eat and cool water to drink.

How little do I know compared to the mind of the Lord!